Feb

21

By Mia

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Life’s Gotten Harder, but God is Always Good

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Lord,

Thanks so much for Psalm 22 this morning – such a wonderful reminder that You have not forgotten me & my family especially as the last few weeks have felt mostly hopeless.

Here’s a review:

  • No new brain symptoms just more intensity that is now causing my right leg to feel a bit  heavier now & then – THANK YOU THAT I DO NOT NEED TO BE IN A WHEELCHAIR!
  • Thank You that I am Miracle for I am still living with brain mets, now 25 tumors from the 15 in July 2012.  Thank You that I’ve surpassed the 13.5 months prognosis of Whole Brain Radiation from June 2011 — this month is my 7th month beyond prognosis!
  • Had to take more dex/steroid as I was having headaches, nausea, vomiting more frequently.  Thank You for helping me learn how to minimize using it so that I will have less side effects of insomnia, & pls. also protect me from its side effect of growing the cancer & anything else.   Pls. bless us financially so I can afford to buy the natural steroid supplement that helped me 2 years ago.
  • Pls. help us figure out what natural protocol will be most effective for the lung since I no longer have the oral chemo.  Give us wisdom to decide.
  • Pls. help me with nutrition & give us ideas with the limited resources available in our community.
  • Pls. grant the provision for me to get the best technology that will strongly support my healing.
My life is in your hands and I am thankful for each day.  Thank You for grace esp. during times I throw tantrums because of weariness or pain…or as what my onco said, symptoms of the 2nd largest tumor behind my right ear?  Thank You that I am still coherent even it seems I moved & think much slower before.  I continue to seek Your healing, O Lord.  Thank You for being my Rock ALWAYS & for giving strength to write of Your marvelous  deeds today.
Your lamb,
Mia aka Miracle

Psalm 22.

For the choir director: A psalm of David, to be sung to the tune “Doe of the Dawn.”

My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?
Why are you so far away when I groan for help?
Every day I call to you, my God, but you do not answer.
Every night you hear my voice, but I find no relief.

Yet you are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
Our ancestors trusted in you,
and you rescued them.
They cried out to you and were saved.
They trusted in you and were never disgraced.

But I am a worm and not a man.
I am scorned and despised by all!
Everyone who sees me mocks me.
They sneer and shake their heads, saying,
“Is this the one who relies on the Lord?
Then let the Lord save him!
If the Lord loves him so much,
let the Lord rescue him!”

Yet you brought me safely from my mother’s womb
and led me to trust you at my mother’s breast.
10 I was thrust into your arms at my birth.
You have been my God from the moment I was born.

11 Do not stay so far from me,
for trouble is near,
and no one else can help me.
12 My enemies surround me like a herd of bulls;
fierce bulls of Bashan have hemmed me in!
13 Like lions they open their jaws against me,
roaring and tearing into their prey.
14 My life is poured out like water,
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart is like wax,
melting within me.
15 My strength has dried up like sunbaked clay.
My tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth.
You have laid me in the dust and left me for dead.
16 My enemies surround me like a pack of dogs;
an evil gang closes in on me.
They have pierced my hands and feet.
17 I can count all my bones.
My enemies stare at me and gloat.
18 They divide my garments among themselves
and throw dice[a] for my clothing.

19 O Lord, do not stay far away!
You are my strength; come quickly to my aid!
20 Save me from the sword;
spare my precious life from these dogs.
21 Snatch me from the lion’s jaws
and from the horns of these wild oxen.

22 I will proclaim your name to my brothers and sisters.[b]
I will praise you among your assembled people.
23 Praise the Lord, all you who fear him!
Honor him, all you descendants of Jacob!
Show him reverence, all you descendants of Israel!
24 For he has not ignored or belittled the suffering of the needy.
He has not turned his back on them,
but has listened to their cries for help.

25 I will praise you in the great assembly.
I will fulfill my vows in the presence of those who worship you.
26 The poor will eat and be satisfied.
All who seek the Lord will praise him.
Their hearts will rejoice with everlasting joy.
27 The whole earth will acknowledge the Lordand return to him.
All the families of the nations will bow down before him.
28 For royal power belongs to the Lord.
He rules all the nations.

29 Let the rich of the earth feast and worship.
Bow before him, all who are mortal,
all whose lives will end as dust.
30 Our children will also serve him.
Future generations will hear about the wonders of the Lord.
31 His righteous acts will be told to those not yet born.
They will hear about everything he has done.