Feb

21

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Life’s Gotten Harder, but God is Always Good

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Lord,

Thanks so much for Psalm 22 this morning – such a wonderful reminder that You have not forgotten me & my family especially as the last few weeks have felt mostly hopeless.

Here’s a review:

  • No new brain symptoms just more intensity that is now causing my right leg to feel a bit  heavier now & then – THANK YOU THAT I DO NOT NEED TO BE IN A WHEELCHAIR!
  • Thank You that I am Miracle for I am still living with brain mets, now 25 tumors from the 15 in July 2012.  Thank You that I’ve surpassed the 13.5 months prognosis of Whole Brain Radiation from June 2011 — this month is my 7th month beyond prognosis!
  • Had to take more dex/steroid as I was having headaches, nausea, vomiting more frequently.  Thank You for helping me learn how to minimize using it so that I will have less side effects of insomnia, & pls. also protect me from its side effect of growing the cancer & anything else.   Pls. bless us financially so I can afford to buy the natural steroid supplement that helped me 2 years ago.
  • Pls. help us figure out what natural protocol will be most effective for the lung since I no longer have the oral chemo.  Give us wisdom to decide.
  • Pls. help me with nutrition & give us ideas with the limited resources available in our community.
  • Pls. grant the provision for me to get the best technology that will strongly support my healing.
My life is in your hands and I am thankful for each day.  Thank You for grace esp. during times I throw tantrums because of weariness or pain…or as what my onco said, symptoms of the 2nd largest tumor behind my right ear?  Thank You that I am still coherent even it seems I moved & think much slower before.  I continue to seek Your healing, O Lord.  Thank You for being my Rock ALWAYS & for giving strength to write of Your marvelous  deeds today.
Your lamb,
Mia aka Miracle

Psalm 22.

For the choir director: A psalm of David, to be sung to the tune “Doe of the Dawn.”

My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?
Why are you so far away when I groan for help?
Every day I call to you, my God, but you do not answer.
Every night you hear my voice, but I find no relief.

Yet you are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
Our ancestors trusted in you,
and you rescued them.
They cried out to you and were saved.
They trusted in you and were never disgraced.

But I am a worm and not a man.
I am scorned and despised by all!
Everyone who sees me mocks me.
They sneer and shake their heads, saying,
“Is this the one who relies on the Lord?
Then let the Lord save him!
If the Lord loves him so much,
let the Lord rescue him!”

Yet you brought me safely from my mother’s womb
and led me to trust you at my mother’s breast.
10 I was thrust into your arms at my birth.
You have been my God from the moment I was born.

11 Do not stay so far from me,
for trouble is near,
and no one else can help me.
12 My enemies surround me like a herd of bulls;
fierce bulls of Bashan have hemmed me in!
13 Like lions they open their jaws against me,
roaring and tearing into their prey.
14 My life is poured out like water,
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart is like wax,
melting within me.
15 My strength has dried up like sunbaked clay.
My tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth.
You have laid me in the dust and left me for dead.
16 My enemies surround me like a pack of dogs;
an evil gang closes in on me.
They have pierced my hands and feet.
17 I can count all my bones.
My enemies stare at me and gloat.
18 They divide my garments among themselves
and throw dice[a] for my clothing.

19 O Lord, do not stay far away!
You are my strength; come quickly to my aid!
20 Save me from the sword;
spare my precious life from these dogs.
21 Snatch me from the lion’s jaws
and from the horns of these wild oxen.

22 I will proclaim your name to my brothers and sisters.[b]
I will praise you among your assembled people.
23 Praise the Lord, all you who fear him!
Honor him, all you descendants of Jacob!
Show him reverence, all you descendants of Israel!
24 For he has not ignored or belittled the suffering of the needy.
He has not turned his back on them,
but has listened to their cries for help.

25 I will praise you in the great assembly.
I will fulfill my vows in the presence of those who worship you.
26 The poor will eat and be satisfied.
All who seek the Lord will praise him.
Their hearts will rejoice with everlasting joy.
27 The whole earth will acknowledge the Lordand return to him.
All the families of the nations will bow down before him.
28 For royal power belongs to the Lord.
He rules all the nations.

29 Let the rich of the earth feast and worship.
Bow before him, all who are mortal,
all whose lives will end as dust.
30 Our children will also serve him.
Future generations will hear about the wonders of the Lord.
31 His righteous acts will be told to those not yet born.
They will hear about everything he has done.

 

 

Jan

15

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My Family Is My Greatest Reward!

Daddy God,

Thank You for such a beautiful reward. Pls. let my keyboard/mouse cooperate right now. Thank You for the wonderful ImagoDei time I had with Golden and Eckhardt’s spiritual warfare devo for 1.16.13 & You loving reminder how I am so rewarded!

Thank You for also working in my heart Holy Spirit to obey You this morning. What a delight to do! Jesus, You are the best friend who sticks closer than a sister. I love you. Bless our family Triumphant Trinity with Kingdom-centric vision, Spirit-filled passion, divine health, Cross-centered humility, Solomonic prosperity, and Paulistic global discipleship for Your fame that we may enjoy You forever.

In the MIGHTY, APEXgrace NAME OF JESUS,
AMEN!
(13.01.16/w5:09a)

Psalm 127:3-5 (The Message)
Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?
the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows
are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents,
with your quivers full of children!
Your enemies don’t stand a chance against you;
you’ll sweep them right off your doorstep.

Jan

15

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IMAGO DEI: Repentance So Sweet

Oh Lord, You are the Most High Gentleman Who Sings Over Me with Praise!!! This past week has been a challenging time wholistically and You are so gracious and merciful towards my wickedness.

You have slowly and lovingly opened my eyes in all the ways I have dishonored You. Thank You Holy Spirit for “IMAGO DEI”, your loving phrase to remind me of Your mighty work in me & others. Thank You for using Papa Piper to speak about living life in the “MERCY OF GOD”….

How Justified Sinners Love Each Other

I LOVE HOW YOUR WORD LEADS ME TO JOYFUL REPENTANCE. I wept this morning with tears of sorrow for maligning You for all those years I never quite realized.  Yet I am overjoyed that GRACE & TRUTH in You JESUS GIVES ME YOUR LOVE & PEACE EVERLASTING!  And O, Sweet Holy Spirit You are in Me giving me the desire growth and giving me the power to do so (Phil. 2:13)!

I humbly ask that You keep me relying upon You every step of the way, especially when attacked by the adversary. Keep mom & I safe during our travel.  Lord, we commit these requests to you:

  1. Warm tropical climate:-D
  2. Give us favor to accomplish the medical and residential needs in a timely manner.
  3. Experience the benefit of Lifestream immediately & have cost-effective assessments & treatments throughout.
  4. Receive the boys Christmas gifts.
  5. A time of restful retreat with YOU!
  6. Have quality fellowship with my Tomada Loves & those You bring our way.
I pray for DTC & family we leave behind that You will bless this time and work in their hearts to draw close to You.  Thank You for answering these prayers for Your glory.  In Jesus name, Amen. (g.1.15.13.T.10:17p)

Dec

31

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2013 is Gonna Be “D” BEST Year Yet!

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May this 2013 be the year that we all make action plans to fulfill Ephesians 2:10 for the Kingdom!

“For you are God’s workmanship created anew in Christ Jesus TO DO GOOD (KINGDOM-CENTRIC) WORKS which He planned long ago SO THAT YOU WILL WALK IN THEM!” (M translation)

Lover of my Soul, I EXALT YOU WITH ALL MY MIND, HEART, SOUL & STRENGTH!

Every fiber of MY BEING DELIGHTS IN YOU HOLY FATHER, LOVING BROTHER, & BFF SPIRIT:-D  Thank You for the most wonderfulC celebration with my Golden, Xanerai & Kecione.  I AM TRULY RICH for being blessed with DTC.  We honor & praise you this morning APEXgrace for You are SO RICH IN MERCY & LOVE towards we who are so UNDESERVING.

Thank you for such a productive day for the boys and I yesterday as we prepared for the new year by tidying up our dwelling place.  Thank You for sustaining me despite my fatigue & sporadic ailments.  Thanx that I god to do my e-treatment which proved to me again its value & that I got to listen to the X-hedonism on Prayer & Bible which of course You perfectly brought to my attention at the RIGHT place & at the RIGHT time!  You have been SO DOING THIS FOR ME since my birthday July 25th!  What a delight to live in the Friendliest Place in the Galaxy (FPG)!  Thank You for all the wonderful people here both old & new – each one is a precious blessing to DTC!  Bless each of them immensely for their ongoing fervent prayers and reaching out to help us during our trying season.

How do I love thee, let me gush the ways…

  • You are Superbly Full of Joy & my maximum happiness can only be found in You (thank You for JP who articulated that Truth which has resided in me since my teen years:-D
  • You are so filled with hopeful surprises.  In particular I speak of the hope You gave me in the weakest link in my life – homemaking – this is EXTREMELY challenging for me.  So many times I feel helpless, clueless & hopeless.  I constantly cry out to you & thank You that even though I go through a myriad of emotional travesties to fulfill this calling/season of life, You give APEXgrace to endure.  Thank You for working to restore this area of my life as I have been mostly absent in homemaking since the diagnosis Dec. 2009.  Our DTC looks to You this 2013 for a renewed vision the way we had left for YWAM in 2010 & EVEN WAY BETTER!  Thank You for our family devo Sun. night 12/30 where we discussed what 2 Resolves we wanted to do (ala Jonathan Edwards) for 2013.  Then You delighted our DTC @ church with our “Come Thou Fount Family” hymn & a TRULY PERFECT MESSAGE on commitment which was what You have been brewing in us this last several days as we grew increasingly distasteful with our mediocrity in our home.  So, Daddy God, pls. fire the flame of vibrant faith in our home & pls. give each one of us wisdom what RESOLVES to pursue (i.e. Scriptures) & have a plan for success.  Help us recognize the right people who will lovingly keep us accountable with APEXgrace.  Pls. provide All-gifts-Spirit-filled Bible/Prayer soaked people who have GOD-SIZE FAITH & VISION that keeps at TOP PRIORITY your Kingdom of gathering worshippers from every nation, tribe & tongue.

    “Christianity and the Three Chairs: The Truth About the Consequences of Compromise” – Joshua 24:14-15; Judges 2:6-15

  • You are INCREDIBLE in such INTRICATE PERSONAL INTIMATE MANNERS that bring about the RIGHT PEOPLE, OPPORTUNITIES & RESOURCES @ the BEST TIME!  So the rest of this list is about Your IMPECCABLE TIMING that has truly lessened my daily concerns!!!
  • You are the GREATEST RESOURCE!  Thanx so much for Blueprint For Life that is helping shape the Xtras Klub philosophy of W2L.  Bless our family this year with prosperity in all areas: spiritually, relationally, physically, financially, and professionally for we desire that Your Kingdom virtues is OUR central focus.  Give us strength & wisdom to live this out MOMENT BY MOMENT.  Pls. provide all the resources we need to articulate our Kingdom-centric DTC vision & plan & please provide the best channel to finance it starting this month so we can realize our dreams this summer for CDG, vow renewals & ipop…this is a GOD-SIZE DREAM REQUIRING GOD-SIZE FAITH, so help us God!
  • You redeem ALL things – NOTHING is wasted in Your economy even in loss or terminal illness and I am still hopeful & have faith for my COMPLETE HEALING of stage 4 lung & brain cancer that I shall have proof someday.  I believe YOUR REPORT – there is no cancer in heaven & by faith our familie DTC seeks Your will on earth as it is in Heaven.  Thank You for leading me to this video series I’m going through for such a time as this  – pls. strengthen YOUR ROYALTY to WALK IN OUR BFF’S SPIRIT’S giftings so that there is a widespread manifestation of APEXgrace with miracles.

Charles and Frances Hunter – How To Heal The Sick

  • YOU ARE SO INCREDIBLY AMAZING!  Since my youth, I’ve always prayed & longed for a kindred spirit gal pal similar to the Anne of Green Gables…thank You for my “Diana” whom I met last year using while I was receiving natural treatment from Tom’s company.  As a customer, we’ve mostly interacted because of my orders.  I was always impressed with her excellent service but I’ve not been in touch with their company since about April 2011 & I saw her at the Do Hard Things Youth Conference @ Th Rock July 2011.  Three days ago Dec. 29 (Sat) I finally got around to make a phone order for Lutimax from http://www.immunobiotics.com/ since my most recent MRI Oct. 21st showed slight growth in the larger brain tumors of the 25+ lesions (that I call canCURE😀 NOT cancer).  I found out from “Heavenly” (the French meaning of her name) that Tom passed away almost exactly a year ago.  We ended up talking for 1 hour & 45 minutes!  WOW!  That is rare for me…You are so wonderful to sing over me Daddy God, giving me a sister in Christ with a kindred spirit of being completely immersed in the Kingdom agenda while basking in “scandalous GRACE” (her term:-D).  We so delighted in YOUR WORD & WORK in Tom’s life, hers, mine & others/Your mission.  It felt so celestial as if I was in a cafe in the heavenlies hanging out with my gal pal in eternity!  WOW!  So much to look forward to!  I was so simply thrilled how easily our conversation flowed & at every turn it was all about YOUR MARVELOUS DEEDS OF GRACE!  THANK YOU (*infinity) for that Spirit-filled refreshing time that ended with a magnificent prayer of declaring undaunting faith in You!  Thank You for the immense blessing You gave through her as she proliferated with testimonies of Your GOODNESS in her life being so authentic which can be such a rare find among women…what a joy we had delighting in You as we shared humbling stories with authenticity.  We both fully acknowledge that we are MOST DESPERATE FOR YOU & without you, we would be utterly wicked and forsaken.  THANK YOU JESUS THAT THIS IN NOT SO!  WE ARE FOREVER GRATEFUL!!!!!!!
Well, Trinity, I am so glad we spent this precious first hour of the year together.  Thank You for being my JOY.  You alone are worthy of ALL GLORY, HONOR & PRAISE!
YOUR DARLING DAUGHTER DELIGHTING IN YOU, HER JOY ETERNAL,
Miracle
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Dec

23

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2012 CHRISTmas Gift Poem for you!

Merriest Christmas Blessings & a Prosperous 2013 New Year!

We thank God for each of you & the times God brought us together. It is an honor to know you at any level as God grants. Our prayer for you & your loved ones is that the Lord works in your life mightily that You will have no doubt of His loving care for you…and if you ever do, email us so we can be an encourager in the good, bad & ugly days of life.  We hope & pray that as you read our #2012.ChristmasGift.Poem.fr.DTC that it also becomes your prayer.

We reflect upon God’s mercies & grace as we celebrate the MOST SIGNIFICANT BIRTHDAY OF JESUS this 2012! Here are brief highlights from DTC (Doerksen Tomada Clan):

  • Tri-une God continues to confirm His promise for our DTC FAMILIA that we indeed have life more abudantly (John 10:10) especially when we abide in Christ. For we realize all the more that truly APART FROM JESUS, WE CAN DO NOTHING.
  • Jesus, THE HEALER, continues to heal Mia (now “Miracle” ala Bible renaming traditions; Gil is “Golden”:-) from stage 4 lung & brain cancer and in every wholistic aspect possible body & soul.
  • God blessed us with a wonderful time of retreat living away for almost 7 months this year – preparing us for our return home. We praise God for having Miracle’s sister Jamie live with them & be an INCREDIBLE BLESSING, and of course Miracle is most delighted that she was able to dote on her since she just absolutely adores all that God made Jamie to be – brilliant, beautiful & bestie. God also brought another blessing to us, Kgina Min Saul, an Every Home for Christ missionary who became like family to DTC. Gina’s mission transfer to another area is a big loss for us but we trust in God’s provision as Miracle continues to battle fatigue from her “health opportunity”.
  • Thank you God for meeting new friends & reuniting us with loved ones (relatives, ICF, Kona & Guam families et. al.) during our home-away time witnessing Your faithfulness in each other’s lives. Our church ICCSD was integral in God’s work on transforming us to be more GRACE-fixed in our daily living. Hallelujah!
  • A wonderful welcome upon returning to the Friendliest Place in the Galaxy! Miracle & the Barnabies (sisters of encouragement) did an early 13th wedding anniversary (12/10) gift to welcome Golden Gil with Xan & Kci – a flash mob to the tune of Wedding Bell Blues with lyrics such as “Gil, God loves you so He always will…” (pictures in attachment)
  • Thanks to Dad & Mom Tomada with their task force, the home we were looking forward to dwell once again was ready for us!
  • The Lord is thrilling us with renewing and creating relationships with the people He brings our way effortlessyly. We’re blessed with the loving support of our Faith Church since ever since (a Guahan saying).

Our prayer requests…

  • We,DTC, to be filled with the Holy Spirit with Wisdom as we establish new lifestyle habits as a family desiring to honor God by keeping the Trinity at the center of our lives through prayer, the Word, and partaking in His mission to be the hands & feet of LIVING OUT THE KINGDOM ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN. We are praying for a family vision to help us thrive daily.
  • Increasing faith & grace for God’s outpouring of healing & prosperity upon us, as we seek direction regarding livelihood and trusting Him for daily provision.
  • God to bring the right person to us who help in our home as Gina did & that we may be a mutual blessing in each others’ lives.
  • Protection from the enemy as we seek God every moment to develop discipline/self-control in every area of life especially in areas that affect all our relationships.

Trying to keep it succinct! We love & miss each of you dearly! Pls. update us when you can & let us know how we can pray for you!

We love because He first loved us,

DTC FAMILIA TEAM

Golden Gil, Miracle Mia, Xanerai (Xan) & Kecione (Kci)

Our Christmas Registry (check it out – you might want to get something for you or your family too!) –http://www.christianbook.com/Christian/Books/registry_shop?action=shop&registry_id=1114036&event=REG&p=1013720

Our Tri-fold Scripture

Acts 20:24

But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.

Philippians 2:13
for it is God who works in you both to GIVE you the DESIRE and the POWER to do what PLEASES HIM.
2 Timothy 2:2
And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, teach these to faithful people who will be able to teach others also.

Dec

17

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Blueprint 4 Life!

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Daddy God,

You are awesome & worthy of all honor & praise.  These last few days have been up & down with moments of extreme regret esp. in how I treated my beloveds when I was hungry or tired…pls. send respite soon:-D

Thank you that I didn’t wallow in judgment but prayed even in my wickedness & you OF COURSE delivered me.  It was further affirmed when I finally got the chance to listen to Joseph Prince who is so much like Andre.  Daddy, please send someone like them with Piper/DesiringGod-based person to be the next PIU prez.  Thank You for the life changing event that occured last week in w/c DTC became independent, struggled thru disagreement, lost it like the bad old days & quickly regained it in a matter of 30min.  It involved people keeping safe while another was engaged in spiritual warfare and so thankful for having such a kind-hearted understanding spouse.  It was a marvelous & humbling lesson on having confidence in your calling & discerning Your timing with approriate leadership/accountability & how you affirmed this in the aftermath devos & circumstances.  I had longed so much for a retreat, probably a yearning borne from the unresolved lost years of upbringing.  Despite a successful spiritual battle, it did not come to pass and you did it in such a loving & kind way that I felt so secure in you & not harrased by previous fears.  YOU ARE INDEED SO AMAZING!  The expectant friends were so gracious in responding to me & ever so ready to offer financial help & otherwise to make my goal a reality.  But I knew by then that God’s timing is perfect & He showed me the way:-D

It has been quite rough having to stay behind in my cluttered surroundings (thank You that it slightly improves daily).  Thank You esp. for giving me insight tonight after I blew it this morning muttering a lot of regretful words like the bad old days when I’d succumb to my initial reaction coz “i was right to do so”.  Once again, you lead me to the right resources of ordering “Blueprint for Life Study Kit” which further affirmed Your hand upon my life.  I’ve only heard 2 of the 9 sermons & it was so reassuring & convicting – You spoke SO CLEARLY through Andy & Tony.  I pray my family & I will be channels of this message to others.  So much to say but I need to go to bed.  Help me recall as needed!  LOVE U! G’nite…SO GRATEFUL  I AM YOUR BELOVED DAUGHTER WHO RECEIVES INSTRUCTION & EXTRAVAGANT FAVOR FROM YOU DADDY!

Nov

26

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This is the 1st Day of the Rest of My life…?…

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Buenas yan Hafa Adai Daddy God!  I SO DELIGHT IN YOU LOVER OF MY SOUL!  You bless me SO EXCEEDINGLY, EVER ABUNDANTLY, ABOVE & BEYOND WHATEVER I could think or imagine.  THANK THANK THANK U 4 PEACEFUL SLEEP!  I fell asleep on the couch last night, and my GOLDEN (a.k.a. Best Hubby in the Universe) carried me up the flight of stairs & I’ve had the best sleep I’ve ever had since being on the Friendliest Place in the Galaxy!!!

A month ago, I had learned from a recent MRI that there was slight growth in the brain tumors.  Of course, the enemy used that to scare me as well as the painful pings & pangs throughout my body.  But Holy Spirit, You are SO WONDERFULLY KIND to remind me what my Kenyan Mama Lucy Muya ALWAYS lovingly encouraged me TO ALWAYS TRUST & BELIEVE ESP. AS SHE EAGERLY SHARED ABOUT PEOPLE’S SUPERNATURAL HEALINGS –

Believe ONLY the REPORT of the Lord! (The Report of the Lord is His Word/thee Bible & the Holy Spirit’s witness to my spirit)

Holy Trinity, thank You for being my BESTEST FRIEND WHO WALKS RIGHT NEXT TO ME!  Darling Daddy God, you rejoice over me as You see me walk in APEX GRACE — thank You for blessing me with this term that SO REFLECTS YOU!

AMAZINGLY PERFECTLY ENJOYABLY XTRAORDINARY GRACE – Father, you are Amazing; Jesus, you are perfect so I am already perfect in the eyes of Trinity; and Holy Spirit, You are definitely Enjoyable – we have so much fun in the spirit!  This is something I’ve always desired & always felt I fell short too often…but You make ALL THINGS RIGHT IN YOUR PERFECT TIME!  Amazing FATHER, Perfect SON, Enjoyable HOLY SPIRIT – you are the 3 persons who make up the God-head of (e)Xtraordinary GRACE!  What INCREDIBLE INSIGHT YOU GIVE ME!!!  Thank You for your loving & gentle reminder for me to give you THE FIRST FRUITS OF MY TIME.  The only t& sleep so He will have an EXTRAVAGANT SENSE of your power, grace, love, joy AND RENEWED STRENGTH SOARING ON EAGLE’S WINGS.  Bless  Him with a marvelous day of peace.

Thank you for this morning’s time/devo with You which was quite appropriate regarding the challenges we face…AND OH WHAT AN OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE “A LEAP OF FAITH” as my Hunk of Love Golden Gilbert Brian Doerksen discussed & prayed last night.  WE DECLARE THAT YOU ARE THE CENTER OF DTC (Doerksen Tomada Clan) and that in YOUR PERFECT TIME, YOU WILL TRANSFORM GUAHAN TO BE A 100% CHRISTIAN NATION.  Thank You that You are already in the process of sanctifying Your Guahan United Kingdom Builders to accomlish the MISSION of GATHERING WORSHIPPERS FROM EVERY NATION, TRIBE & TONGUE!  Mission only exists because Worship doesn’t (a.k.a. the earth is still to be FULLY FILLED OF YOUR GOLDEN GLORIOUS GLORY by the ones You lovingly created in your perfect, creative image!)

Sorrowful, yet ALWAYS REJOICING,

Yours foremost then Golden’s Miracle Miamahal Miawok Yahmmei 😀 (trivia…what does “ah” mean in Hebrew?)

—-my devo from Wisdom Hunters date 11/17/2012 in the subscription email—-

Someone may be in debt to you. They may owe you money, a reputation, an apology, a job, or a childhood. But God is asking you to let go and let Him. Let Him handle this. He has a payment plan for those who are in debt to his children. It may mean He wipes their slate clean with minimal repercussions. It may mean their stiff neck forces God to bring them to the end of themselves through trials and tribulations. Or, it may mean that what awaits them is an eternity of reaping in hell what has been sown on earth. But God’s position is one of judge and jury. You do not have to carry this burden or responsibility. Your role is to forgive and to trust God with the proper judgment and consequence.Life gets complicated and draining when we take on the responsibility of making sure a person gets what he deserves. This is arrogant and unwise on our part. How can we know what others deserve for their injustices, neglect, and self-absorption? Our role is not to play God, but to serve God. Playing God is a never-ending disappointment. We were not made for that role. Only the Almighty can fill these shoes. And He does have it under control. There is no indiscretion or blatant injustice that is off His radar screen of sensitivity. He picks up on every “little” sin.So, rest in the assurance of knowing God will pay back in His good timing and in His good way. Give this person or issue over to God. Do not bear the responsibility of executing payback time. Your role is to forgive and let go. God’s role is to establish a payment plan of justice and judgment. Yes, your parents may have blown it through their own selfish tirades. Their immature choices may have built up over time and led to divorce. Because of their indiscretions and unwise decisions, you grew up in a less than favorable home environment. But look at their faces. The hurt and the consequences are etched in their countenances. The results of their wrongs have caught up with them. They need your grace and forgiveness. Be a good son or daughter, and by this you may facilitate healing for your parents’ soul. Sin has its own harvest of heartache, not to mention breaking the heart of the heavenly Father. Trust God with your parents. Let Him worry about what they deserve.

You can bring reconciliation to a fractured family relationship by forgiving. Once you have forgiven, trust God to administer whatever punishment He sees as fitting. He may see a broken and contrite heart in your offender that leads to their salvation and freedom in Christ. Your forgiveness and unconditional love may be the very thing God uses to illustrate what they can experience up close and personal. Forgive and give. Forgive them of their hurt, insensitivity, and selfishness; then give them over to God. Trust Him with His repayment plan. He owns the payback process. His vengeance may be swift, it may be delayed, or it may be dissolved. Regardless, you do the right thing, and trust God to do the same. Vengeance is His, not ours. Payback time is up to God. We have enough in our own lives to consider. Pray for yourself and others to avoid falling into the hands of the living God, for it is a dreadful thing.

Taken from the November 18th reading in the 365-day devotional book, “Seeking Daily the Heart of God”… http://bit.ly/InvUdR

Post/Tweet: Our role is not to play God, but to serve God. His judgment is best.

Sep

10

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ATTENTION: Heaven & Earth, Please Help Us!

Daddy God,

Thank you that I finally launched Your campaign for Guam’s 1st Healing Center ever  on the beloved island of Guahan.  Please stir the hearts of those You want to give to be cheerful givers.  Thank You for your generosity Daddy in all Your spectacular gifts you give to every person on earth.  Thank You that some day we get to see all those who are now with You.  PLEASE SHOWER XTRAVAGANT LOVE, GRACE, JOY, PEACE, HOPE & COMFORT UPON ALL those suffering loss & those still in the healing journey.  Thank You HS that You brought to my lap the most current update on youtube – bless ICF & ICCSD with a multitude of blessings for this.

Always,

Your Darling Daughter:-)

P.s. Thanx 4 my Barnabies who sang this for me & others.  Thank You for the beautiful gifts You’ve given them & that they just keep passing it on!

A heartfelt song sung by my Barabies (daughters of encouragement) that gave HOPE to all who\’ve listened to this song

Sep

5

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Kool Kecione

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DARLING DADDY GOD,

Thank you so much for a delightful evening bonding with my Kuchicakes.  As the boys were getting ready for bed, I challenged K to brush his teeth with me for 7 min since he said that I brush my teeth for an “hour”.  I smiled remembering how kids experience/perceive time very slowly.  So if he was able to do that, he would get a prize.  We finished brushing in about 5 min. & he got the prize.  Then somehow, we ended up talking about spiritual matters – THANK YOU!  He explained to me that when he prays/talks to you he doesn’t hear anything & like I’ve told him in the past, You talk to him thru Your Word & people & ESP. during Peace/Devo time.  I shared with him about Your word in the Psalms to “BE STILL & KNOW I AM GOD” & that it means that we wait to listen to what God has to say.  Thank You Holy Spirit about my notebook where I would write what You were saying to me during the Dawson-style intercessory prayer in 2010.  Unfortunately, I had the wrong notebook coz I have 2 identical ones.  Instead, I shared about the word of knowledge I received at SD 1st Assembly where I prayed for healing while I was in the wheelchair & the first time I went to a service where I had to lay down on the pew for most of the service.  You said, “BE FAITHFUL & TRUST ME”.  Then K & I talked about what faithful means.  Thank you for showing me how truly brilliant my son is by the way he responds.  He told me that faithful is being thankful & both are rhyming words – that’s the part I remember for now.  Then he raised his voice when I asked more question – I was trying to milk this teaching moment (thanks for Colleen’s unschooling chit-chat).  I think you were giving me a glimpse of how sweet home(un)schooling would be someday.

Thank You Ames’ email this morning.  Thank You that she shone brightly at the Olympics for Your glory.  Pls. help us connect soon.  Thank You that both boys ended up staying home from school today as we had a peaceful day together – THE BEST DAY SO FAR!!!!   THANK YOU!!!!  Just to think that last week, I was sitting on the floor teary eyed & head bowed as I whispered a desperate “God, help me, IDK what to do…” as the boys waited right in front of me as I tried to instruct them because they were constantly annoying each other.  Thank You for the mothering encouragement you give me thru Ate Bex – thank you that we are so alike in some ways & different in special ways & to top it off it was super easy to connect from the get-go:-)  You know how I struggle in my role so thank You for giving me a wonderful mentor; I was blessed to hear how she perceived K since the boys stayed with their family for 2 days last month.  Help me record these moments & HS pls. bring it to my remembrance.

Grant quick recovery for DBG & give him wisdom how he spends his time tomorrow.  GRANT US ALL WITH PEACEFUL SLUMBER.  Thank You for the 2 devos I had with boys – & the one just an hour ago when X was reading the JC passage & I was lightly scratching both their backs.  Thank You for these great treasures.  Thank You that GEM are growing in grace even during the worst days like last Sunday.  Help me recall & record that incident so I will learn from it.

Pls. bless all the laborers in the fronties & pls. continue to build up more laborers for the plentiful harvest.  In Jesus’ mighty AMAZING name, AMEN:-)

Aug

29

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Under the Weather

w.20.22

Daddy God,

Thank You that I’m blogging again.  I’ve been under the weather since almost 2 weeks ago & last week was a challenge for me in all aspects.  Good health is such a crucial necessity, it really affects everything else.  Please give me more wisdom in this area.  You know my struggles & I ask that You continue to grow hope & inspiration in me to keep allowing You Holy Spirit to transform me & not succumb to my human frailties.  Thank You Lord that You are in the trenches with me even when I am very overwhelmed with the afflictions of this healing journey.  Thank You for being near me even when I was in the deepest doldrums and wincing about these last four years.  I know my calamity is not nearly like what the persecuted believers go through.  I pray that You sustain their hope Lord & comfort them with Your Loving Presence that Your Word consumes them so they will look to You in every moment of loss or suffering.  And help us other believers not to forget them.

Thank for the 8.29 JC today.  It’s always a great reminder to remember that when we put YOU FIRST, everything falls into place more effortlessly.  Help this to be at the center of every day I live…

AS I LOOK TO YOU FOR GUIDANCE, YOU ENABLE ME TO

DO LESS BUT

ACCOMPLISH MORE.

Lord, help me see that in every moment that I must rely upon You.  I pray that You bless our home with peaceful slumber & that You give us strength & wisdom to nurture one another in love, joy, faith & peace.  Help us to choose wisely in how we live.  Help us to rest in You.  I thank You for your healing for me.  I pray for the families that lost their loved ones to cancer.  Comfort them Lord; renew their strength.  Thank You for giving them all they need to keep hoping in You & resting in You that You will reunite them with their loved ones for they have trusted in You.

Pls. bless Jav & the boys to have a great first day in school tomorrow.  Help them to develop a great desire for learning & grow them to be lifelong learners.  Pls. make their new learning environment be attractive to them.  I pray for good placement results for them & bless them with a spectacular year of learning.  Help us to always keep You at the center.  Pls. bless our lunch plans for this Sunday with fabulous weather, scenery & fellowship.  We love You, Lord.  In Jesus’ mighty name, Amen.

Aug

16

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You Delight Me, O God!!!

F.1, 5:45am

Daddy God, Thank you for awaking me early so I can spend this precious time with You.  You are wowwing me constantly:-)  Thank You for this new season of feeling more at ease in life & still growing in my FASCINATING intimate relationship with You, Lover of my Soul. Thank You for Your fantabulous Words You gave me this am thru JC-Aug. 15.  Thank You for answering our prayers for Mer & how you provided a time for us with Pelly to have lunch @ Healthy Hearts & do some grocery shopping at CUL.  Mer had her pivotal meeting shortly after dropping me home.  In the evening the boys & I stayed overnight with the Garvs & she was basking in Your favor that she was transferred to teach at a better school.

Since I last posted, it seems that something special happened daily by Your detailed orchestration!  But before I delve into recalling all those blessings, I want to declare Your good works from the prior week.  GEM had a scuffle here & there but we turned to you each time so the issues were resolved.  We’ve learned so much from Marsha that it’s not so much that we disagree, but it’s more that WE ARE DIFFERENT & we need to appreciate that about each other:-)  HOW UTTERLY TRUE!!!!  Thank You for such insight Lord!  It’s so much easier to remember that than succumbing to feeling rejected.  You are so awesome!

One of the highlights last week was that You made Val always available when I was in need & could not find others to help.  It was great that I got to have lunch with her & Liz @SDA SF.  Then the next day (Wed. 8/8) Val took Kg & me on errands to Kenny’s, Dollar Store, Office Supply, etc.   On Thurs. I had somewhat of rough am tho coz I waited almost all day for Dad to fix my keys & I was really hot in their home.  Praise You that Val was able to rescue me mid-afternoon & I asked if we could have Boba later after she babysits (this is the detailed version from my aug. 9 post)

One of the highlights last week was Friday when I got to have my first 1-2-1 time with Ate Bex & we exchanged gifts – all by Your inspiration (I wanted to get her a Guam souvenir while I was with Val having Boba at SM).  We had a great chit-chat-rabbit-trails time getting acquainted.  What I remember most is her sharing with me about an elderly lady who was delivered from years of wife abuse who told here that “There is NOTHING we go through that has not sifted thru the hand of our LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER.”  That was a great THESIS for my healing essay that began Dec. 2009 & is still being written today:-)  Daddy God, thank You for creativity!

After being with Ate Bex, I wanted to go to PIRC & PEACE.  PIRC closed down so I went across the street to PEACE.  I saw Pete but was unsure he remembered me & I asked him if I could see Bobbie.  I was waiting quite a while so I ended up seeing Gayle & Remy who were so pleasantly surprised to see Your miracle in me:-)  So, they rushed me to Bobbie’s office where we had a great time getting caught up with each others’ families and near future plans.  To top it off, we had a great time connecting with You as we laid our burdens upon Your throne of grace.  Thank You for the extra blessing You gave me through Ate Bobbie:-)  Bless their work & their families.  AND please transform our homewide community with Your Transforming XTRAVAGANT GRACE!

My parents had the boys for the weekend so GEM would have couples’ time.  We mostly rested & relaxed & enjoyed each other’s company – kinda like reliving the courtship years:-)  Friday night, we just sat next to each other enjoying one another’s presence while surfing the net separately.  Saturday, after Westin prayer, GEM went furniture browsing & DG found a prospective affordable desk w/c he bought & assembled last night 8/16 Th.  We had fun & relaxed in the afternoon…then about 8pm, I initiated spontaneity for us to go shopping at the Mall. I got an “As Seen on TV” karaoke set that was on sale and within budget & kid friendly!  YAY GOD!  I also got to check out Bench & I liked the style & prices:-)

The mall closed at 9pm, so we went to 7-day coz Gil wanted something & I wanted to check for a lazy susan at Sweet Home Care but they were closed.  So I followed after Gil.  After purchasing I asked to page him & the cashier was about to do it but she gestured to her boss/owner? if she could just turn the mic over to me…so I paged Gil: “Gilbert Doerksen, pls. meet your wife at the front.”  That was fun!

After that, we needed to get water so we went to the usual spot.  We found out Han was there – a mutual friend of Jayms from UH – and her bro Dave, now 15 & my former 5th grade student in 7 years ago!  He towered over me.  We had a brief but very joyous exchange of updates & invited them to visit us at Faith sometime.  We had a great time when we did the “Awesome Love Fest” Leo Palace retreat a few years ago combining youth from Faith & their PC church on the Bheights.

On Sun. 8/12, our lunch plans with the Vees didn’t materialize so we rescheduled for this weekend…and of course that happened b/c You planned something for us that was beyond expectation:-)

The PIU Board & representatives met at Bayview Church, likely the most beautiful church campus on the Friendliest Place on Earth (aka GUAM; my mom is on the far left:-)

To start off, I woke up extremely early with a slight bounce in my steps.  I felt compelled to see the church where Gil & I (GEM) started our marriage, Bayview.  So far, it’s the only church where we became members from 1999-2005.  I haven’t been on campus for years & I know it was You Holy Spirit who drew me there after my Peace Time with You.  I enjoyed taking a video of my self-guided tour of the campus noticing how it was even more beautiful now & had a new playground between the sanctuary & CEB.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I took this picture about 6am.  Then in the am service at Faith, You tickled my fancy when I remembered the YWAM actions for the chorus of “Shine Jesus Shine”.  Afterwards, I connected with Pearl who told me that Essie was celebrating her 100th birthday at Bayview!  So off we went and saw JLT getting ready to leave the parking lot – so nice that they were the first people we saw.  As GEM walked towards the church/party, I tried eyeing people I knew.  I was about 2 yards away when I noticed a familiar face – Missy!  I haven’t seen her since the end of Frosh year at CHC:-)  We immediately hugged & chatted a quick 2min. update of our lives & the possibility of hs co-op.  As I entered the CEB , I bumped into Jane & greeted each other with glee and marveled at God’s miraculous work in my life.  I was tremendously blessed to know that You are using this blog to encourage others.  It was GRAND to see all our friends looking like they haven’t aged a day:-) And it felt like we picked up where we left off.  Please make a way for our ‘ole mini-church to have a reunion SOON!  I saw so many of our friends but only had enough time to connect to several others (JJ, Lanuzas, Madrids, Wesslings, Baysingars, Rob O., Juliette, & Michelle – pls. provide a home for their family & comfort her with your EXTRAVAGANT GRACE).  You are so wonderfully creative in surprising me with these nostalgic moments, AND REMINDING me of ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS YOU’VE DONE & CONTINUE DOING!

Then the following day Mon. 8/13,  the day started out rough as the boys were already awake when I was getting into my morning routine of nourishment (I start out with liquids).  Without having a full meal yet, I was short-tempered with K but decided to just take my time working with him to eat his breakfast (picky one!).  I don’t know recall how You orchestrated our talk, but he said “I’m ugly.”  He kept repeating it with a frown & began to cry which made cry while I asked, “Why are you saying that?  Who is telling you that?”.  He then mentioned the bullies at Faylem this past year of 1st grade.  He also wept over his dismay over being the smallest one in his class “I’m so little!”.  So we talked about how God grows everyone differently, some are late bloomers.  Kg & I affirmed that he is handsome – thank you for that God:-)  I encouraged him to keep praying about his concerns with God & to eat more healthily.

After our late breakfast, K was pleading to buy 2 air fresheners (the boba kine).  I told him that he’d have to pay for it ($10) & for gas ($2).  We made a deal & I took him to Kmart & he got to ride on the mobile wheelchair with me.  I also told him that we had to go to other places before going home (he is being cured of impatience, just like me – thank You Jesus that I’m having fun writing about this right now:-).  We made 3 very brief stops for me to check availability & pricing for a sewing machine & lazy susan (pls. provide these for us soon, Lord!) at BF, Tictoc & AceAnig before we got to our Maite storage which is next to FB.  In FB, You surprised me with reconnecting with my “look-alike” from the pentecostal Teen Challenge (several church members during my teen years 2 decades ago would mention that I looked like her – which was great coz she’s beautiful;-).  It was great to hear about their upcoming Miracle church-planting venture!  Then I noticed that the lady browsing in the store with her was someone who looked familiar – I pointed to the lady & said, “Mrs. Serrano, I’m Mia.  You were my 8th grade teacher at St. Anthony”.  Then she said in mid-sentence, “Yeah I remember, Mia Tomada.”  And Drew piped, “She’s my sister.”  Wow!  Of course, ONLY YOU, Holy Trinity, can arrange something like that:-)

But back to my wonderful K…when we got into the storage, he became ecstatic seeing ALL the goodies we left behind before leaving for YWAM Sept. 2010.  He proclaimed, “I’m the treasure hunter” as he adorned himself with his large-gold-chained necklace ala Mr. T or MC Hammer.  We had a great 20 min. or so of finding our treasures to take home:-)  Thank You for this wonderful bonding time with Your precious gift to me.  It was also during this time that I became even more convince that I should homeschool.  We’ve been praying about it esp. in light of knowing that I still need to rest a lot & need to focus on my health.  It seemed too lofty a goal since I’ve always been strongly drawn to Classical Christian Education since encountering the NOAH Plan during an ACSI conference in Honolulu in 2004.  Then, You surprised me last Fri. 8/10with re-discovering “unschooling” through the eyes of Canadian-Guamanian parents of 5!  Thank You that You are showing me balance to pursue excellence AND rest:-)

Wow!  I’ve been writing with ease from You Holy Spirit…I still have so much to mention & pls. help me to do it soon.  THANK YOU & I LOVE YOU.  Bless us all with a good day with great weather:-)  In Jesus’ All-Powerful name, Amen!!!

 

 

Aug

11

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Eis Doxan Theou!

+1 SUN.12 – 4:50

Heavenly Father, I am so giddy getting to spend some precious time with you this early morning!  Actually I’ve been pretty giddy since yesterday, especially when I felt Your Soaking Presence when I prayed with my dear Barnabies at the Westin.  Holy Spirit, I am ever so grateful for the prayer You prayed through me, which was affirmed by Mer as she related during our drive time how Your words gave assurance & peace in her Spirit as she seeks guidance for this season in her life.  You know my heart’s desire for her O Lord, and I pray You will work in her to see clearly where she must go to redeem the time.  What she & I are experiencing is profoundly affected by how we will respond to you…

RELAX IN MY HEALING, holy Presence.  Allow ME to transform you through this time alone with ME.  As your thoughts center more & ore on Me, trust displaces fear and worry.  Your mind is somewhat like a seesaw.  As your trust in e goes up, fear and worrry automatically go down.  TIME SPENT WITH ME not only INCREASES YOUR TRUST; it also heps you discern what is IMPORTANT and what is not.

ENERGY & TIME ARE precious, LIMITED entities.  Therefore, you need to USE them WISELY, FOCUSING on WHAT IS truly IMPORTANT.  *As you walk close to Me, SATURATING YOUR MIND WITH SCRIPTURE, I will show you how to spend your time and energy.  My Word is a lamp to your feet; My Presence is a Light for your path.

Ephesians 5:15-17  (version from NET BibleTherefore be very careful how you live – not as unwise but as wise, taking advantage of every opportunity, because the days are evil. For this reason do not be foolish, but be wise by understanding  what the Lord’s will is. 

Psalm 119:105  Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet & a light to my path. 

(-Jesus Calling Aug. 1o; also read on d 9th when Ate Bex gave me this precious gift!)

Thank you Lord for  Amy Atkinson for her to do all things for Your glory & blessing her to break Guam’s record.  She declared  “It was one of the highlights of my life. I just want to bring glory to God in everything I do while I am here and say thank you for this opportunity.”

May You continue to bless her & her family so they may bless others.  Holy Spirit, work in us (esp. GMXK) that we may be excellent in all we do at home and in the global community – all for Your fame so many nations will gather as Your worshippers.  I pray for the seeds the Atkinsons have planted that it will culminate into a joyful harvest soon.  In Jesus’ mighty name, Amen.

14.8.12-Ts-5:44am

You are so good to me!  I thought I just lost this whole post…thank You that I didn’t.  LOVE LOVE LOVE U!!!

 

 

Aug

9

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Sing With Me How Great is Our God!

+1 FRI 12:31

Almighty Daddy God,

Thanx so much for Your Word today & Your PRESENCE in my life.  Continue to work in me to consciously engage You in all I do throughout the day, especially in the areas I am weakest in.  I pray that You will bless my fellowship with Ate Bee & I hope she’s an answer to prayer.

Thank You so much for all the wonderful things that has been happening, and for helping me through my times of failure when GEM would find ourselves falling back into old unwanted habits.  Pls. provide the right guidance for us esp. as we face new community and extended family dynamics.

Thank You that You have lifted me out of the frustration of getting organized & helping me become more skilled in this weak area.  There have been times throughout this journey that I wake up with a “blah-siness” about life because I’m not doing all those exciting things I used to do and yesterday was one of them.  So, as I greeted You with a reluctant good morning & thanked You for another day, I lingered in bed with a sense of boredom…thank You that it only lasted for several minutes & I became excited about all the adventures You have in store for my life even if I’m now at the pace of a turtle & not a cheetah:-)  I was telling some people last week that I usually felt that my brain/thoughts go about 100MPH while my body at 5MPH – so frustrating!  But as always, You’ve helped me come to terms with that as I wait for the day of being fully restored!  Help me be all the more eager to spend these precious moments with You, Lover of My Soul.

Thank You for blessing K with an overnight stay with Zeek on his bday & for smoothing out the misunderstanding that occurred the ff day that DG handled so perfectly with grace!  Thank You for my husband of  12.5 years…WOWSERS!  Thank You that the boys got to hangout with their down-the-hill buddies Escos, staying overnight twice last week and that we all got to watch BRAVE FOR FREE on Fri. – all 11 of us!  It was so great to see Kuya in his movie theater office & discover that he is now a lolo:-) AND what a delight it was to watch Step Up Revolution with my parents the day before!  IT WAS SUCH A BLAST, LORD!!!  I love dancing & thanx for giving me 3 athletic males in my family who do it so well  & proved it to at last Sunday night at church:-)

This week started out with a great bang:-)  Sunday AM service was pleasant & afterwards I totally got excited connecting with Meks for possibly doing CC with our kids.  Then lunch at JLT & my pabulous parentals was JUST EXQUISITE – lobster & lato (ararusit:-) – my favorite (along with raw oyster kinilaw salad, w/c I’ve not had since 2010!!!!)  DROOL!!!!  In the evening, we had a great time welcoming the 6-month interim pastor & his family islandstyle:-)  Thank You for a delightful welcome potluck fellowship for the VanEes who shared Your wonderful work in Your leading them to us. Thank You that I was able to share the “How He Loves” excerpt from the boys Faylem birthday party video last month, then finding out Val’s obsession with the song last year:-) And I re-met Luz who is a gifted filmmaker (the barnababes later had a “conquer the world” jive w/c originated from a mutual idea for a +nightclub, et al).  My barnabies, of course, did great with “Shout 2d Lord”…Then the highlight were the KIDDOS!  What IMMENSE JOY it was to see K initiating the impromptu dance presentation “Jesus is My Superhero” with both arms wide open as if he was saying “Welcome to the Extravaganza!” with his agile body!  The boys did such an excellent job with flips, handstands, breaks…and DG with his famous worm since losing 40 pounds!  All the kiddos were fun to watch:-)  What a partay!

Thank You for the Mexican lunch date with my barnababes (Val, Liz & me – so far:-) at SDA.  Jesus, thank You so much for providing my transportation needs through Val this week – and I just adore spending time with her!  Tues was lunch, Wed errands with Kg & pm White Collar, then yesterday emergency at 3 & relief hangout at 7 with pineapple boba @ SM.  I esp. realized yesterday how much she reminds me of beloved Jayms.  I think You are answering those unspoken prayers I’ve had of being able to hang out with my sister like we’re both in college since we’re 10 yrs. apart…You are so amazing to allow nearly-forgotten wishful thinking to crystallize on this side of eternity.  SI YU’US MA’ASE!

Thank You for Kg & what a tremendous blessing she is to me & DTC.  Pls. make a way for her to stay with us as long as possible & that we will all enjoy one another.  Bless our family with restorative health & sleep.  Pls. continue to prepare & send out 2Tim2:2 laborers throughout your worldwide harvest.  Help us see our roles to pray, mobilize, welcome, send or go.  Bless those who are at the frontiers of the harvest – strengthen them with Your unfailing love.

I worship & adore You, Father, Son & Holy Spirit!

 

 

So now when people ask me, “How’s
your health?” I say, “I feel fine. And the doctors are
pleased.” Which, being translated, means: “I don’t
know how I am; only God knows.”
That God knows, and cares, and rules, is enough.
The passage of Scripture that came to my mind while
I waited for the biopsy was 1 Thessalonians 5:9–10:
“God has not destined us for wrath, but to obtain
salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for
us so that whether we are awake or asleep we might
live with him.” That is enough. I am not destined for
wrath, but to live with Christ.
Until we see him, may God help us not waste our
health or our cancer. (From Don't Waste Your Cancer)

Aug

1

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From Whom All Blessings Flow

+1, 7:33AM

Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning for I am trusting You.
Show me where to walk for I give myself to You. -Ps. 143:8

Holy Spirit, thank You for this accurate title that completely describes our family’s experience, which has been especially conspicuous this past week. Thank you for the traveling mercies for Kg & me & our overnight stay with Jaym, not to mention the nice place we got to stay in as well as the great organic food we got at Down To Earth. Upon arrival, we were met by our family & friends who sang Happy Bday since it was actually my bday…prolly the shortest bday ever, about 10 hrs. Then we had welcome hugs all around, then I blew the candles on my bday cake, and we all headed to Nit’s Thai. What a joy to see my parents, JLT, Judy, Anne, Eli, Fran, GvFam & EHC!

Thank you for my wonderful barnababes who did a spectacular job on our mini-flash mob for DG & XK who were pleasantly surprised. DG was teary eyed as we danced & sang to the tune of Wedding Bell Blues with these lyrics:

Gil, God loves you so, He always will
He looks at you and see passion eyes for Mia
Oh, but is she ever gonna see her wedding day
God is on your side Gil, when you were losin’
He’ll never scheme or lie Gil, there’s been no foolin’
Kisses and love won’t carry Mia til you marry her Gil

We love you so, we always will
And in your voice we hear a choir of carousels
Oh, but is Mia ever gonna hear her wedding bells

Come on Gil
Oh, come on Gil
Come on and marry her, Gil
She’s got the wedding bell blues
(MIA) Please marry me, Gil
She’s got the wedding bell blues

Thank you so much for my parents’ generosity as our home essentials were ready:-) Thank you for our Faith Church deacons’ gift of love as well as all the other gifts from our friends and family. Help me to keep my eyes fixed on you.

Thank you that this is the easiest cold I’ve experienced & please help me recover soon. Pls. have my meds arrive here quickly and with no further delays in the future. Strengthen Kg & me to finish most of our organizing today. Bless the boys’ time at the Escalonas. Bless our family in their business.

Thank you for my time with You in JCK 7/26 “Tune in to Me” which is what You have been growing in me since early this year. Help me turn to You for every direction. Help me always draw close to you. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen.

Jul

22

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This is the Day the Lord Has Made!

SUNDAY, 7/22/12, 6:20AM

Father, thank you for putting this song in my heart. Thank you for ALL your wonderful blessings. Thank you that seeing Dr. Ati in Santa Barbara worked out & as he was communicating early on, Holy Spirit, you blessed me with insight of how You have carried me through this journey. Triune God – You’ve amazed me again & again with Your intricate & loving orchestration of the detailed events of our lives that will culminate in our JOY for YOUR FAME/GLORY. I feel incredibly loved by You – and when I wondered at times why must I have this “canCURE” season I’ve continued to grow in realizing how many grace projects You have accomplished in me & my family’s lives thus far…

I vividly remember late Sept. 2010 in the first day or first week of DTS when I had asked our speaker something, and Bones responded “This cancer is not just for you, it’s for everyone around you. We will all learn something through this.” And boy was He right, Lord! Thank You so much for our time in YWAM DB. Bless their ministries abundantly that they may multiply & effectively make Jesus known among the unreached peoples.

Your grace has touched the DTC lives that we have become more loving & caring with one another.  We see Your grace all the more as we have confessed our wickedness & asked for Your transformation of grace in us.  Jesus, You have walked with us & carried us through the best & worst times.  Father, You are so patient for us to “get it” – to grasp the depth of Your trustworthiness so we will not fear in believing You for what we cannot see yet – closer relationship with You, financial prosperity, complete healing, loving relationships, healthy communities, reaching the least-reached or unreached, and everything!  Every dominion is Yours O God, so please continue to increase in You that we can truly live out “WITH GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE”  Thank You for good movies like Blind Side that highlight that.

Lord, you know how much work I have left today, so I thank You for prompting me to do this now & casting all my cares upon You in this PeaceTime.  Please favor us that all things will go smoothly for the next several days.  Grant our hearts’ desires for WE DELIGHT IN YOU!  We love You Lord!  In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Jul

17

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What a Mighty God We Serve

TUES. July 17, 2012 7:55am

For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place and you and your father’s house will perish. And who knows whether you have not attained royalty for such a time as this? -Esther 4:14

Beloved Father,

I praise you for you ALONE are worthy of ALL honor and praise.  We are your beloved, and your grace & love are SO ABUNDANT for us all.  Your goodness & mercy are everlasting.  You guide our paths with heavenly wisdom.  You know each of us so intimately & speak to us in very specialized ways.  I marvel at your works, O Lord.  Continue to grow my trust in you so that whenever I face disappointment or loss, I will not falter but look to You WHO IS THE GIVER OF LIFE & ALL GOOD GIFTS.  Thank you once again for all the wonderful surprises you bring my way…Like saying a bday greeting on FB w/c ends up being a dinner reunion with dear friends from ‘ole CHC tomorrow!  Only you can design such things…not to mention the 2.5-hr. connection you prepared for Crissa & me even before you laid the foundations of the earth.  Your works are too wonderful indeed O Lord.  Father, pls. grant your wisdom & clarity as she is seeking to obey your command to gather more worshippers who delight in you, making You famous in their lives & throughout the world.  Grant her heart’s desire & give her all that she needs that she may always rely upon you for every endeavor.

Lord, thanks so much for the reading of Esther 4 and what a beautiful confirmation of all you’ve been doing for me and my family…how you orchestrate things in such a way that we must respond in the roles, even locations, where you’ve place us.  You are so detailed that nothing is random & you are showing that to me all the more esp. as you reveal glimpses of past details that connect to my present life.  I can still be quite incredulous when I recall all the “LIMITLESS” times you gave me a great sense of foretelling last year, which culminated to a healing email I wrote July 7, 2011.  Thank You for all your loving reminders of how powerful & mighty you are in our lives!

I pray for our family this week that you shower us with strength & grace especially in our treatment with one another with all that is expected.  Bless our finances abundantly & honor all the good intentions that we have done.  Thank you for continuing to bless our family in all areas.  Pls. give us favor in all we do this next several days.  Pls. make a way for us to stay at a friend’s house starting this Sat.  Pls. bless them for their generosity.  God, thank you for ALL THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE you bring into our lives.  Holy Spirit, thank you for touching my heart two days ago after service, which led me to kneel & cry because I was was so overwhelmed by your kindness – bringing me all the way hear so I can be so much more intimate with You Lover of My Soul – and how you gave me a precious friend over a decade ago who has now greatly impacted my life & G’s.  You are so amazing Father, Son & Holy Spirit.  I cherish You & delight in You.  In Jesus’ superb name, Amen.

Jul

11

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Thank You Thank You!

Father God,

Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow! I got that from  Louie Giglio’s Laminin story.  And what a perfect exclamation of all the wonderful ways you’ve been answering our prayers favorably!  XK’s bday party was fabulous!  The boys & their classmate friends really enjoyed the bday, Xmas ’08 & Truitt Timeline videos as well as Elaine’s awesome-possum cake & the party favors.  What a joy it was to hear a few of them excitedly proclaiming, “That was a great party!”  X just shared that all his classmates & friends said that it was a cool birthday party.  So now I’m asking K, and he forgot & said that they looked happy. Thank you, Lord!  Yesterday was crazy with the party & appt. back to back but it turned out smoothly…thank you!  And today we started the classical practicum & our whole family enjoyed it & my appt. went quite well…thank you!  Pls. give us all good night’s rest & for traveling mercies for Mom & Tita Belen.  Bless us to do all that we need to get done smoothly without unnecessary stress by walking in Your Peace.  In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 

Jul

9

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Crunch Time

7/9/12 MON.

Father, thank you for delivering me from the physical challenge (pyn) I endured yesterday. Pls. bless me with strength & wisdom as we prepare ourselves for the next chapter. Pls. help everything we need to get done today go smoothly. Pls. let the CC practicum for parents & children be very enriching this week. Pls. help me get things ready for the boys’ class bday party tomorrow. Pls. make it easy for me to get connected with the people to get appts. I still need done. Pls. bless us with a good pyn-free day. Pls. help me with digestion. Forgive me that I struggled being attentive during our couples’ devo. Help us to do it daily despite all we need to get done. I love & worship you. Thank you so much for the great blessing you gave us on Friday at ICF. Thank you that you are healing me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Jul

4

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We Need God, and so does America

4th of July, WED – 9:16am

The eternal God is MY refuge,
and his everlasting arms are under me.
He drives out the enemy before me;
he cries out, ‘Destroy them!’ – Deut. 33:27

Gracious Father,

Thank you for another day to worship You.  Thank You for giving me a patient heart this morning, and not eager to “get things done” like I’ve been these past few days as we prepare to travel.  I awoke this morning with a tint of bleakness.  Thank you that you are helping me process my emotions in a  healthier way.  Yesterday, July 3, I took a few minutes after Dvo with G to understand Nang’s somewhat contradictory response to me when I gave the compliment of “Thank you for making God famous.”  Gni (G & I) discussed it and thank You that we figured out that Nang & I were both right in our view because we were coming from different perspectives.  We concluded that Nang came from the perspective of God being famous/known by people in church, while I was speaking from the missional perspective that God is not famous & sometimes not even known in the church & esp. most of the world.  I also realized that because I admired Nang’s intelligence, I felt a tinge of rejection that we did not see eye to eye on this though we usually do about everything else.

Additionally, when a person admires others, we may have high expectation of them – thankfully You brought Cas & me together for lunch 2 Sundays ago (June 24) & she reminded me a crucial Life Skills lesson we learned when we had the class together at Foothills Church last year.  In order to not be disappointed, we need to lower our expectations of others.  Remembering this, I applied it to how I felt about Ang.  Because I looked up to them, I felt disappointed that they could not just say thank you for the compliment or be encouraging but rather comment to what I said – it must be familiarity.  Please help me get over it soon, Lord, and I thank You that I sense Your forgiveness for them and for myself to be washing over me.  You were so kind to remind me yesterday (7/2) as I read Jesus Calling “I gave My own blood so that you would be fully forgiven.  So forgive others & forgive yourself.  Let My Spirit help you make good choices and correct you when you need it.  AND ALWAYS REMEMBER, I DO NOT CONDEMN MY CHILDREN.” Thank You for Your Abundant Lovingkindess in our weaknesses.

I pray for Your favorable blessing on America, please restore the biblical ideals that our nation was founded upon.  I pray that You will inspire the churches to be gracious & sacrificial, especially in sending more laborers and resources where the harvest is plenty but the laborers are few, like the peoples in the 10/40 window.  I am so blessed, my Lord, to be a citizen of this country.  Pls. help us all not waste our blessings so that we may bless others.  Help us see how we can do that.  THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MOM & DAD, who have huge hearts to do that.  I pray You bless my mom to realize her dream of opening an orphanage or other ministries.  Thank You for blessing our family.  Thank You for helping me see how blessed I am esp. because I would sometimes wonder want other people’s lives who haven’t gone through the hardship I’ve been through.  Holy Spirit, thank You for growing me in the knowledge that each of us is unique & we have been given particular sets of circumstances to make us who we are & we have a choice in how to respond.

Thank You for this time with You Lord, and help me be mindful of connecting with You throughout today.  Pls. bless my efforts favorably to get my presentation & party planning for Friday at ICF.  Pls. bring our family & friends together & others You desire to be there.  Thank You for Ele doing the cake, Aunty Mel for the set up & Fy for integrating our 4-birthdays (13-Xan, 23-Jmi, 25-me, 27-Kci) party.  Guide me as I choose to share.  More than anything I pray that You would speak through me to bless others & draw them to a closer walk with You.  I love & cherish You, Father, Son & Holy Spirit.  In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Jun

30

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A Slower Pace

June 30, 2012 Sat. 7:38pm

Father of Lights You delight in Your children; EVERY GOOD & PERFECT GIFT comes from You.  It’s been quite an exciting week Lord…I just looked over a few my entries & I said that June 27 was my best day so far…and now I can barely remember it.  I pray that You jar my memory so I will not gloss over all the good things You have been accomplishing in my life.

This week, it felt like my mind exploded with so many ideas of what I wanted to do and could not contain my joy/myself.  It was extraordinary but also concerning.  I had been getting little sleep, an average of 4 hrs. a night these last several days with my thoughts running in full speed about 60% of the time —- I would feel the drain at times, but Your Holy Spirit has sustained me above what I could ever expect.

Some of the blessings you are reminding of the stark contrast of seeking You and researching regarding all the unanswered questions of being able to leave in July – waiting for test results, finding out insurance and medical service arrangements, making appointments that are very necessary prior to departure.  It was a lot of work & overwhelming, but You helped me rely on Your strength to overcome the mountain of fear (i.e. making MANY phone calls & emails).  I had a huge dilemma figuring out how to deal with my medical situation which started with unfavorable news from Xtina at GCC who was soon going on leave for a few weeks.  With that new overwhelming information, which I wish I had known earlier, I felt somewhat fearful & lost about what to do.  I was tempted to give up and not pursue the desire You placed in my heart.  Yet, I proceeded to research on the new information I had received regarding my insurance and the resources You took me to seemed promising.  Then I began to make the calls needed to affirm if what I’d researched was accurate.  AND what joy You gave me as the tiny puzzle pieces came together – speaking to 2 agents who affirmed the requirements, the pharmacy that affirmed pricing & delivery, and most of all getting an instant appointment to consult with another oncologist.  I was asking You to lead me to one who’d be able to coordinate with me in my special circumstance.  All these were crucial in being able to properly assess our situation & I thank You for giving me Your favor.

It was Friday, June 22, when I must have spent an hour or so researching/calling oncologists finding out the policy in being able to get an appointment.  I was thrilled that after the 3rd or 4th call, I was able to find one that just required for some medical records to be brought in to secure an appt.. It was friday so I needed to get this to them & I had 30-40 min. to do so.  I begged G to take me to the clinic & thank You that he was immediately responsive to this urgency.  As we left, I remembered that I’d wanted to get my medical records from UCSD.  So I wanted to go there first since the other clinic was a few blocks from UCSD.  When I got there, the door was already locked although there was a 1-2 min. left before closing.  I almost left immediately but You must’ve prompted me to know about 3x that I was surprised that someone actually opened the door.  I gave her a puppy face pleading to filling out the request form.  She allowed & I began to fill it out, then I realized that I had to think through my request because of the fees.  With that in mind, I took the forms and rushed to submit a copy of my latest clinic notes (w/c Xtine had requested from me two weeks or so ago) to the onco I wanted to consult with.  We arrived at the clinic despite a traffic jam 5 min. b4 closing.  I was quickly impressed by the receptionist’s pleasant demeanor.  She looked at my file and said, “Wait a moment, I have one onco still here & I can show her this so & check if you can schedule an appt. with her right away.”  I WAS THRILLED!  You definitely surprised me with that because it’s the weekend & most employees trudge at the end of the day.  She returned mentioning she could schedule me on Tues. & to forward the rest of my medical records…wouldn’t ya know, I had the release with me.  You are so Awesome-possum God for making this work out so wonderfully.

So on Tues. June 26, I met Dr. C – I loved her demeanor & Italian married name.  She asked me to tell my whole story which, amazingly, I was able to do in about 15 min..  She gave a check up & then proceeded with my (approx. 10) questions & concern which led to my consultation that day. I was delighted with her answers and her approach to my customized circumstance.  With the new information I gained from her, I knew what I needed to do to be able to decide getting off the clinical trial since Xalkori was now FDA approved.  I contacted the pharmacy, which You made it so easy for me to do, Daddy God and they gave the exact time frame of 3 mos. w/c is in line with her follow-up policy.  Perfect!

The next day, June 27, I was focused on finding out regarding a test result w/c I’d been following up on since the day after the test took place.  They told me I would receive the info on Tues.  I didn’t receive a call so I left a couple of messages as well as email.  They then told me that I should receive a call Wed. morning.  I did not so I followed up & thankfully the substitute Dr. M finally called.  All the results were normal so I WAS JUST ELATED, jumping up & down like I was a teenager about to see her favorite celebrities in person belting a sing-song of “I’m going to G, I’m going to G, I’m going to G!”  In the afternoon, I had my annual physical & I was able to get most of the additional blood tests I wanted…I even enjoyed the process…thanks 2U of course:-D

By June 28 Thurs, I had received a call from CuraScript that I would be receiving my prescribed medication soon & was surprised that my current onco had done it – then I remembered their email the day before on researching the drug’s cost off the trial.  Shortly after this surprise, You worked Your magic Father so that my Clinical Research Coordinator – an angelic lady just like Nurse JDv – to follow up on my response email that I didn’t need further research on the cost of the drug.  It was the perfect, most opportune time to let her know that I wanted to end the trial so I didn’t feel I had to defend my decision, w/c You knew was a source of anxiety as I have truly enjoyed interacting with them.  Our conversation was so easy – I just felt Your Spirit’s presence of peace hovering our spirits as we spoke.  As I blog about this now, I recognize Your affirmation of making a wise decision especially as I had waited for Gil’s final comment so we could decide together that day before I even spoke to KH.  To top it off, she reminded me of my July 10 end visit & I will see my birthdaysake onco Dr. M whom I’ve enjoyed getting to know sporadically whenever he substitutes for Dr. B.  It’s funny that I hardly treat him like a doctor but more like a friend I’ve known a long time like since my teen years:-)  We both wear glasses too!

Yesterday, Friday the 29th, I was quite hyper-Spirited once again.  I was incredibly cheerful for someone who had to be in the hospital for 3.5 hrs. doing a 2-pronged appt. for a bone scan.  I had to be in at 10am to get the radioactive injection, then wait 3hrs. Gil & I had lunch at the cafeteria then did 2 Daily Mess. entries…an You surprised me again!  My Pulmo Dr. M walked by us & after a few seconds I recognized him.  He was the one who told me last year that my lung right lobes would never be restored again after being collapsed for several months.  I told him I believed in miracles & he said he did too, but not in a lung being restored after such a long collapse.  Anyway, I called his name, he heard me from the stairs about a yard and a half away from me.  He seemed to be rushing but scurried towards me & G anyway.  We exchanged our hello & how are you.  I noted that he was “grayer” now & he said b/c of his 7 month old son.  In quick style, seeing that he was rushing to get back after lunch break, I found out that Aden is his firstborn.  We congratulated him, then he was off!  And we were off too, going to the restroom, then finally checking out the hospital giftshop w/c I’ve always wanted to do but never did.  I had only 5 min. to browse & didn’t expect to really buy anything, but a photo essay of a mother-children book caught my attention.  So I asked my Love to give it to me 4 my bday.  He did, then I wanted to get a UCSD stamp or sticker on it so it will be my souvenir too.

Jun

28

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M Hyped in D Holy Spirit

6/28/12 thurs. 6:56

Father God, my soul shouts in praise for YOU ARE GLORIOUS. I was hyped with the Spirit yesterday as I kept recognizing how You were orchestrating outstanding details to make Your will happen. Thank You so much that we will be home on July 23…I have so much to pour out so please help me remember yesterday – my BEST DAY SO FAR!!! I love you. You are my Rock, my Fortress, my Deliverer in whom I trust! Pls. help me get reconnected with Soulmaz. Thank you for another day, Lover of my soul:-)

Jun

27

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My Soul is A Baby Content (Solo Day 94)

6/27/12 WED. 7:23am

Father God, thank You so much that I’m awake & alert this morning, such a rarity for my nocturnal nature.  When I awoke, I had a grateful heart and thought of this song by Britt Nicole – The Lost Get Found…(and just now, I saw the music video & it is even more powerful as You gently reminded me of my passion…tears are welling up in my eyes because You are so intimate with every person…I am so loved by You, My Redeemer, My Strong Tower, My Fortress, My Hope, My Love, My Joy Eternal)

I invite You Holy Spirit to speak to me now as I spend Peace Time with You.

Psalm 131 http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=ps.%20131&version=MSG

I read through this a few times and my spirit acknowledges that THIS has been Your goal for me & my family as we have walked through a turbulent season that started two and a half years ago.  I have learned to “Wait, Israel (Me), for God. Wait with hope.  Hope now; hope always!”  You also reminded of the time last year when I was in a wheelchair visiting our friends’ AOG church.  Gem (G & I) went up to receive a word of knowledge.  And once we were prayed over, Your words gently settled upon my spirit saying, “Trust Me & be faithful.”  I was seeking healing, and those words – though somewhat ambiguous – gave me Your Peace.  How appropriate for me to remember that special moment with reading Psalm 131 now, which once again You are revealing to me Your Xtravagant care & mercy.  It is even more meaningful as I recall the first time You captivated me with PS.131…I bought a book (& many others!) at the  2005 National Conference “Suffering and the Sovereignty of God” *

The book was Seeing with New Eyes: Counseling and the Human Condition Through the Lens of Scripture by David Powlison.  As I looked through the book, I camped on the chapter – Peace, Be Still: Psalm 131.  As I contemplated while I read, I wanted to experience the contentment that Powlison described in his thoughtful exposition.
God, thank You that you are helping me to not let my heart become proud, for slowly growing in me to be less overly-ambitious.  By Your Xtravagant Love&Grace, I’m learning not to meddle where I’ve no business nor fantasize grandiosity.  Instead, I desire to grow in being still, cultivating a peaceful-quiet heart.  Like a baby content in her mom’s arms, my soul is a baby content and joyful.  So, once again I ask that You grow me in patience to wait for You Daddy God with unwavering HOPE from this time forth and forever.
Relying in the strength that You supply, I pray that I & fellow believers Go M.A.D. (Make A Difference – my motto in the teen years) by being Your Children who incarnate Your Xtravagant Grace at home, at work, in the Body, in the community, among the poor, the outcast, and the unreached.  Grow in us the desire to make You famous by declaring Your marvelous works!  And most of all, help us to seek You daily and manifest Your Love, as we journey from here to eternity.  Thank you for this special time with you & also with DG in our devo, praising & petitioning You tearfully for Your greatness & power in our lives even in the midst of struggle.
I thank You for the favor you grant me and others to walk in Your Way, opening the floodgates of Heaven with the outpouring of your blessings and answers we need.  I love you forever.
Yours alone,
M

*another dream come true as we were spending quality time with D clan in Winnipeg.  Darling husband G & his brother drove us with our 2mos-11day-0ld baby K, while Opama (Opa + Oma) spent extra quality time with X who just turned 2:-)

Excerpt of lyrics from Let’s Go

Andale, Andale, It’s TobyMac with the Group 1 Crew
Andale, Andale, Would you got it, come on

I’ve heard life is like a box of sweet delights
But in reality every day is a fight
So we hold on to the promise that things happen for reasons
We may not understand it but faith keeps us believin’….

Noon

Jun

27

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Yay for Transformation!!!

June 26, 2012 TUES. 11:18pm – 27/WED. 12:24am

Father, Son & Holy Spirity – Trinity!  I thank You that I have this brief moment to testify Your marvelous deed.  I wish it wasn’t so late so I can recount all the blessings I’m seeing.  When I was getting ready to do this post after arriving home from Bible Study, I listened to Gary V’s song below & was so touched because that song reflects the testimony G, my husband, & I shared tonight – that as we went through the dark valleys of the shadow of death (especially last year), we were carried by our Loving & Gracious Protective Shepherd who patiently tended to us with all our doubts & qualms.

Additionally, the main thing that prompted me to praise You & declare Your good works is something that just happened earlier.  I had asked someone (I’ll call the person “they/them”) to join me for a special time of Fellowship this Saturday with a former married Christian couple sharing their testimonies on God’s transformational Grace.  They divorced several months ago inspite of their conviction that divorce would never be an option for them.

This person I was inviting, a beloved soul, said they didn’t want to go, & likely gonna have other plans.  Immediately, I had a sinking despondency, a sort of uneasiness/defensiveness, trying to convince them to see my viewpoint that going to this Fellowship will be very beneficial & uplifting for all who would attend.

Thank You Holy Spirit that at that point, You slowed down my speech before I did more damage to our souls (a.k.a. I was tempted to sin with my mouth & didn’t give in!!!).  Thank You for showing me that I was starting to get in the “controlling zone” – forcing people to do it my way… and eventually I realized that I felt hurt.  As I reflected on my being upset, I was able to tell them how I felt and realizing I was disappointed that they seemed unwilling to maximize spending spiritual quality time together.

With this in mind, I became more understanding — I invited them & they can make their own decision (wow, this is getting me ready for when the boys get older:-).  It’s not my responsibility to convince them that going to this Fellowship/Bible study can really make an impact in their life.  It is, however, my responsibility to share/invite them.  As I’ve learned from our mentors, we need to obey You Awesome-Possum-God, and leave the results to You.  It’s You who works in all of us & them in Your time (they are responsible for their choices), not me.

Wow!  How freeing is that!!!  Letting go!  And just 2 Sundays ago a dear SIJ (Sis in Jesus) had said “Let go” to me after church service ended.  Wow!  You are doing amazing things in us, Lord, and I pray you continue “to give us the desire and the power to do what pleases You” (Phil. 2:13) EVERY DAY!!!  Thank You for this fruit experiencing freedom from old, destructive habits.

YOU ARE MY AMAZING GRACE JESUS! i LUV, LUV, LUV YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!

I just saw that I “accidentally” typed “i” instead of “I” & I certainly take that as Your confirmation that I am WALKING in the way of decreasing as You are increasing:-)  You TOTALLY ROCK, Triune God!!!

Yipee!

Your Miamahal

P.S. wow! As I was editing this entry b4 posting, I also began to see that when we are doing something that feels so easy to do when it usually feels overwhelming to do it, it is a great feeling of confirmation that I am walking in the Right Path & truly enjoying to Do Hard Things in Your Strength, not mine…and You’re also reminding me to still keep “doing the hard things” even when I don’t want to because I can always ask you for the desire & the power to do what pleases You (Phil. 2:12-13).  Hallelujah indeed!

let us PRAY for ourselves & "them" TO TURN back TO GOD ALWAYS no matter what

Could You Be Messiah to Me by Gary Valenciano

 

 

 

Jun

15

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How He Loves Us

6-15-12 Friday

Lord, thank for giving me the title to this entry. I was asking what I should title it, then the song how_he_loves_us immediately rested upon me. I’m somewhat overwhelmed right now because we are still waiting on things and seeking what to do daily and even moment by moment. You know how that is a challenge for me, more so before I began this healing journey. And I thank You that You have truly grown me to really rely on You. Even with the things I’m not totally convinced about, You are so creative in bringing the people or resources to convince me. You are truly amazing.

Thank you for this morning that G & I had our devo on The Daily Message. We are so blessed that You have worked in us to be faithful to do this since this new year began. We have seen how Your word is transforming us & our marriage for Your glory. I thank you for the heartfelt prayers we engaged with You. We are eager to grow in this. You are also uniting our vision and working out in us the power of a triple-braided cord not easily broken – for You Triune God is at the center of two redeemed sinners united together in marriage.  We pray the You will intervene in all marriages & reveal to them the true essence of marriage and seek Your Divine Presence in their Union & how that can be a Powerful Testimony of WHO YOU ARE – THE EXTRAVAGANT GRACE.  Holy Spirit, remind me of these things especially when I struggle in my role as wife and mother.

We are so blessed to be in our local church http://iccsd.org/.  The weekly messages have grown our vision of You.  As I learned slowly, I began to have a firmer grasp of You, who You are and how Your WORD IS LIFE.  I’ve known it before, and it’s so fascinating how I can continue growing in knowing-experiencing You forever in joy eternal!

Thank You for last Sunday’s sermon on 6/5/12, which we GEM enjoyed a lot being reminded how we are so different in our makeup and by learning so we can understand each other more as we bask our marriage in your EXTRAVAGANT GRACE!  Thank You for this great start on the new Life Skills series, and for providing a way for us to keep reminding ourselves on http://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/iccsd-podcast/id499357926

I pray for the persecuted Church http://www.thirteenthree.org.au/get-involved/idop around the world that You would reveal Yourself in a mighty way to them & strengthen them in faithfulness.  Comfort them in their sorrow or depression, and most of all, instill in them an enduring hope in Your EVERLASTING LOVE.

Bless our family today Lord that we may bless others for Your fame.  In Jesus Christ’s all-powerful name, Amen.

 

Jun

14

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A Solemn Moment

Gracious Father,

I just received a call from a friend who shared that one of our SIJ’s (Sister in Jesus) brother passed away. We were both shocked and I eventually gave in to tears as we prayed for the family Euh left behind. Euh (not his real name) was in his early twenties. I hope and pray that he is in your presence. Though I only met him once or twice, I considered him a friend and wanted to be able to connect with him with Your compassion as he was going through a season of lingering darkness. Thank you for the times his sister & I were able to pray for him. Thank you for his family who cared and loved him deeply through good and bad times. This is the first time I have experienced the loss of a friend. Though I know very little of the circumstances surrounding his passing, I cannot imagine the grief Euh’s family must be going through.

Great Comforter, please let Your Holy Spirit embrace Euh’s family during this time of loss. Bless them with EXTRAVAGANT GRACE, LOVE, PEACE & HOPE during this time. Thank you that I met him and enjoyed his company. Thank you for giving me peace that I will see him again. Somehow, though I know you are the only one who knows for sure, I feel that he continued to hold on to you despite his struggles. I know this from my own experience and I am so grateful that you sustain us even under a hovering darkness. Thank you for the resources you provided during those seasons to remind me that YOU ARE MY ANCHOR through all times.  Help me and everyone remember that life is a vapor; therefore, we must seek You daily and make You known in our lives and the lives of others.

I worship & adore You, My Solid Rock,
Your daughter Mia

The Hidden Smile of God
http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/online-books/the-hidden-smile-of-god

When The Darkness Will Not Lift
http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/online-books/when-the-darkness-will-not-lift

LIFE IS A VAPOR (video)